boyz.

I'll forever be just one of the guys. This can be a good thing and a bad thing at the same time.

Where can there be a happy medium?

cuppycakes.

I just finished baking over 106 cupcakes for Shannon's wedding this weekend. It took me about 5 hours to do it and that's only because I only have 2 cupcake pans. Might be time to invest in a few more for instances like today.

I have my buttercream and cream cheese frosting already made too, along with the top tier cake.

This has been the craziest week ever for lush pastries, and tomorrow is gonna be the cherry on top. Decorating everything!

I really can't wait for Saturday to be done with, and Monday to get here already so I can have a nice lazy full day off.

xx

prep.

Today I made over 70 gum paste roses for my friends wedding this weekend. I'm making 106 cupcakes plus a top tier 6" square cake for them to cut into. This has got to be one of the biggest orders I've ever done for lush pastries and I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Mostly nervous about fitting everything in around my normal work schedule [this is the only reason I'm happy to not be at the school district right now], and my lack of space. But it'll be fine, everything always works out, because it has to.

Who knew making all those little guys while watching the appendices from LOTR could make me so exhausted though? Well it could be the 8 hours at the bakery this morning too. And since I have to wake up at 430am and do it all over again tomorrow, I'm gonna close up my computer and close up my eyes.

This week has too much going on for me to be a sleepyhead in the morning.

xx

HBP.

Watching Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince sober is making me extremely happy tonight... especially since I'm feeling sick and exhausted thanks to a very long night last night. It's the little things.

flip.

i kinda got my world flipped upside down this afternoon, and i don't really know how to process everything. for once i'm not in a weird place with a guy friend [which i normally know how to fix/resolve], but a girl friend instead. and i've always had problems when it comes to a bump in the road with a gal pal. so what's a girl to do? i'm really not sure actually. i really just want to scream, eat fried chicken, and scribble in a notebook.

1 hour until i'm out of work, then maybe these things will happen.

xx

drive.

Driving at night on the freeway with music blasting and me singing at the top of my lungs reminds me of being 19 y/o again and making the drive back to Kingman, AZ from Orange County. And even though the drive to SD is much closer, it still felt just as good.

I need more nights like this in my life.

xx

back.

Despite feeling exhausted, this weekend has led me back to where I was a year ago. How I felt before my world got shook up last summer. And I won't knock the summer of '09 because it was pretty rad. But I'm looking forward to some air conditioning, good beer, bike rides [please let me get my bike soon], book clubs, and good times with EVERYONE this summer.

I feel like my old self again, and the diamond on my right knuckle seems even more authentic now.

I lived to tell the tale.

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You ever reach a point where you need to download some new music because everything you have right now is tied to someone or something else, and you're past that now? Oh well maybe it's just me.

I get paid on Thursday and there will definitely be some new music added to my library. Well new-old music. I'm always about 5 years behind it seems.

Elvis Perkins & Jenny Owen Youngs, you will be in my life even more soon. And hopefully Allison Weiss as well.







Well I told myself I'd go to bed about an hour ago, and even though I'm laying here, I'm pretty sure it's a better idea to close my eyes and get some sleep. I have a few more long days ahead of me before parental times and Stone growler fills.

xx

perk.

I have a feeling I'm about to start an unhealthy relationship with Elvis Perkins.

sleep.

And now I will go to bed listening to Bright Eyes and Her Space Holiday... not because I'm sad... but because I can.