December 30, 2009

regrets.

I really try my best to not regret anything I've done. It all happens for a reason, the good and the bad, and it will intentionally form me into the person I'm going to be in the future.

Drunken nights, and nothing fights, and kissing random people... will this have a positive effect on myself in 2010? That's what my biggest struggle is with going into this new year. I'm hoping to find a way to leave the past in the past and have Friday morning be a clean slate.

This doesn't always work out though for the overthinker. So what's a girl to do? I guess just listen to more Camera Obscura and Her Space Holiday. Maybe I'll drink less and read more. Take the time to bake delicious treats for my friends and really be proud of them. Not get jealous as much. And realize that I will lose friends, but I'll gain more independence and hopefully some more great friends because of it.

I want to wake up most mornings and be happy, even if I'm a little hungover.

And mostly I want to love myself fully again.

So 2010 I think I'm ready for you.

xx

December 28, 2009

portland.


Seriously Portland... I'll see you someday... and eat that stupid mac & cheese. And drink all your PBR.

December 27, 2009

unwrapped.

I feel pretty lucky this xmas because I got a few things that really meant something to me. They weren't just things...


My own mug at Hollingshead.


Best mix cd I've ever heard. I've been playing it non-stop since I got it.


And a Harry Potter Oyster Card holder. Now if I can just get back to london.

This was probably the best xmas I've ever had. It ended with my SA family, some new faces and some old. Those people are really the best present I could get all year.

I'm trying now to figure out plans for New Years. I'm sure I'll end up at Memphis since I can walk there and everyone is pretty much going to be there. But I'm pining for an adventure and I have a few days off around that time. We'll see what happens. Everything always ends up turning into an adventure anyway.

xx

December 24, 2009

xmas.


Merry Christmas kiddies!

A little Dave Brubeck never hurt anyone, especially during the holidays. I'm not a huge fan of the holidays, but it was nice to wake up at my parents house this morning. We're cooking breakfast and watching terrible tv. And I'm getting to play with their pup Sadie [gosh she makes me want a dog].

I'm heading back to Santa Ana tonight though to hang out with my other family. We're hitting up a dive bar and just doing what we do best [drink, smoke, be amazing]. I'm extra excited also because I get to hopefully hang out with someone awesome before they head back up to SF. [Yeah, it's making me smile a lot.]

Hope everyone has a great holiday! I didn't have high hopes for today, but it's nice to see that the end of this year has taken a turn for the better!

xx

December 22, 2009

evil.


I've always been thought of as the innocent girl. I never got in trouble. I was always too afraid to do anything bad. But as I get older I realize that a bit of trouble can be a good thing. It keeps you on your toes, along with everyone else. And as long as no one is really getting hurt... being a bit evil is all fun & games.


Plus it makes me wanna be Eartha Kitt when I grow up!

xx

December 19, 2009

#1.



This completes me.

December 18, 2009

war.


I know I've been listening to this song for years, but yesterday at work it came on and I decided to really pay attention to what he was saying. It was one of those moments of perfect timing with the perfect song.

"Because the truth is that gossip is as good as gospel in this town. You can save face but you won't ever save your soul. And that's a fact."

I have a cookie order to fill today. 3 dozen irish whiskey cookies. Then this weekend I get to start on a birthday cake order for Tuesday. Thank goodness BBF has nice fancy cameras so hopefully now my photos for the website won't be grainy with bad lighting.

Is it really only one week until Christmas? pfffft holidays!

I should really get started on my day. Too much to do and never enough time.

xx

December 16, 2009

cha cha cha.



I'm pretty sure I want to be MC Lyte when I grow up.

xx

December 10, 2009

kogi.


Orange County got their very own Kogi truck a few months ago, and BBF & I have been talking about having a Kogi food adventure ever since. It finally happened yesterday!


Between the line, ordering, and waiting to get our food 1 1/2 hours had passed, but the wait was well worth it. We loaded up on Kim Chi quesadillas, pastrami hot dogs, short rib tacos, and sliders and headed to David's house to share the wealth.


We were so full afterwards that it was hard to go to work for the rest of the night. But I'll definitely be back for more soon. Very soon.

December 8, 2009

December 7, 2009

alcohol.



This is my new favorite song. And the BBF's anthem. I think we're gonna go see them next week at Chain Reaction... it will be messy and amazing.

December 3, 2009

loves.


I'll get home and meet my friends at our favorite bar.
We'll get some lighter heads for our heavy hearts.
And we will share a drink.
Yeah we will share our fears and they will know how I love them.
They will know how I love.
They will know how I love them.
I am nothing without their love.

Bring on the weekend already!

December 2, 2009

j'adore.


I adore Marc Bianchi. I have such a crush, and I think it has a lot to do with the fact that his music gets under my skin in all the right ways. He makes me want to wear cardigans and walk around London alone.


"So carry me around like a picture in your purse, and pull me out when things are at their worst."

xx

December 1, 2009

december.


Hello December! When did you decide to show your lovely face? And why is it still hot and sunny outside? Damn you California.

I need things like calendars otherwise I'll never know what's going on in my world. And so far December looks pretty good and pretty busy. Lots of art plans [Santa Ana Art Walk this Saturday + Box Gallery opening on the 9th], Nicci's birthday, and then of course Christmas nonsense. I'm just looking forward to my two weeks off from the school district at the end of the month. Hooray for winter breaks!

As an early xmas present to myself I'm thinking about getting a 160g ipod. My little 8g isn't cutting it for me, but I figure I'll hang onto it for when I go to the gym, unless I can find someone that wants to take it off my hands for a fair price. So right now I'm uploading all of my amazingly bad taste in music onto my itunes so I can be prepared when I get it either today or tomorrow. How awesome will it be to go from Elliott Smith to the Spice Girls to Beethoven in one click of a button. 40,000 songs is a little much, but what the hell, it gives me room for improvement.

I'm really looking forward to this weekends art walk because CH and a bunch of other amazing people Downtown put together one of the craziest art projects I've seen. And I'm so happy that it will be running the whole month, because I have a feeling if I'm ever a little down I could just walk 2 blocks and see this and be happy...

555 KUBIK | facade projection | from urbanscreen on Vimeo.


I'll be sure to take a video of the one down here on Saturday and post it because they customize it specifically for the building it's being projected it.

Off to my 2nd job soon, but at least I have the morning off to sleep in and hopefully go run on the treadmill or something.

xx

November 30, 2009

whiskey.



The only reason I like the holidays is because I can bake really yummy treats and people don't feel as guilty about eating them. Irish whiskey cookies are my next cookie adventure. You can never go wrong with cookies + Jameson.

xx

November 26, 2009

thanks.

It's Thanksgiving for a little bit longer, and even though I'm not really keen on holidays, this one was pretty good. I saw family that I haven't seen in years, ate a lot of great food, and still get to sleep in tomorrow morning.

So in the spirit of things, here's a few things that I'm pretty thankful for from this past year...


Great new friends... BBF came outta no where in my life and I'm really happy that we somehow clicked right off the bat. It's nice to have someone that I can talk to about anything, get in stupid fights with, and still know that at the end of the day he'll be there to make me laugh. And get me drunk [even when he's 400+ miles away].


CH! CHCHCH! Thank goodness for yelp and the stylenetwork. I'm so thankful that this guy is in my life. I'm thankful for him pushing me to start lush pastries and giving me my first big job, for talking me into moving to downtown, and for even little things like letting me crash & having 7am balcony conversations. I'm a lucky gal to have such an awesome friend.


Gotta love the lush pastries bunker!


Nicole not only is the amazing fixer of my hair, but she is also one of my dearest friends. She always know how to make me smile, especially with awesome bbq adventures and frozen yogurt runs. She will forever be my crazy jager sister + 3am dance party partner in crime.


Patio on my patio! Patty seriously had me at hello. Or at least after a late night at Memphis on her first night working. MISE EN PLACE 4 LIFE!


My Johnny love! Thanks for showing me that I am a fucking star... because I am... and so are you!


I'm so in love with David. Like so in love. He gives me the best advice [which I really should listen to], pours me shots of vodka at 1pm on Wednesdays, and will always let me gossip about my stupid life problems. And the whiskey tastings are a good perk as well! Let's have another Goat Hill adventure and play some more epically long games of pool.


UH-MAZING FOOD!!! I've eaten so many good things this year thanks to food adventures. Oh goodness... thank goodness I'm not a crazy picky eater anymore. Special trips to San Diego just to eat a Nacho Cheese Burger might be the greatest thing ever.




And really good beer! Lots of it. Too much sometimes. Thanks for all the foggy memories.

Hope everyone had a fantastic holiday. I'm looking forward to hanging out with my brother and my amazing friends in downtown tomorrow. This is going to be a good weekend. Especially since Saturday is both Brian's Post Turkey Day party + an amazing birthday party. It's gonna be fun and fat, my two favorite things.

xx

November 20, 2009

asleep.


I fell asleep before 9pm last night. I guess all those nights of only getting 3 hours of sleep had finally caught up to me. I was only woken up a few times in the night from random drunk text messages and phone calls.

Asleep by The Smiths still makes me feel infinite at times. It reminds me that sometimes it's best to put your phone on silent, go to bed early, and know that everything will be okay in the morning.

I definitely need to catch up on my sleep adventures so I can be rested enough to go on real adventures in real life.

xx

November 19, 2009

ice wars.



Nights at Memphis in Santa Ana are never boring. Even when I try my best to be responsible and leave early, I somehow get talked into staying 2+ extra hours. My misadventures are always the best when it's just Johnny behind the bar & me sitting in my usual spot, and last night was no different. Ice wars, cookies, lots of whiskey, bathroom photo shoots, me laying on the floor somewhere in the bar at some point during the night, new friends, and of course old friends.

Thank goodness I live walking distance from Memphis... vehicles are not an option after a certain amount of hours down there.

xx

November 18, 2009

November 16, 2009

ink.

BBF uploaded the pictures from my tattoo party so I could post them.





Everyone kept asking me how I was doing. I said "great" every time. High pain tolerance is FTW!



Finished product [a bit bloody].

I still need to get some decent pictures of my diamond because BBF totally failed on taking pictures of me getting my knuckle done. But once it's all clean and healed I'll get some nice shots.

I'm still so incredibly happy and am counting the weeks until I get paid again. I need more ink now.

xx

forever.

Diamonds are forever, but I prefer tattoos. My best friend Andy [BBF... Bacon Best Friends?... we have a weird friendship to say the least] decided to start on his sleeve and I've been wanting to get my knuckle tattooed for awhile, so we decided to have a tattoo party weekend. We ventured to Sid's Tattoo in Santa Ana, Ca Saturday night to get his started. Our friend Bill was doing the deed. His tattoo took about 3 hours and is an amazing traditional black and grey [I'll post pictures soon].

As for me, Bill told me about this special they were going to be having every Sunday for the next year. $60 Sundays! You pick one of 7 designs and it's only $60. So I saw one of the designs Saturday while Andy was being tattooed and made a joke that I should get it with the word "MUFFIN" written above... and that was it. Everyone was sold, including me, and Bill offered to do my knuckle as well.

So off I went Sunday afternoon with my lovely love Patty to get me scarred for life.



I am so incredibly happy with how they came out. Andy came by to visit while I was getting them done which made the BBF Tattoo Party 2009 a success.

Now to decided what to get with my next paycheck...

xx

November 11, 2009

perfection.

We all strive for perfection at least once in our life. Whether it's the perfect meal, the perfect winter coat, the perfect mate, or the perfect cocktail. The only thing I know about perfection is that it's a pretty farfetched idea. But if there's anything that's close to perfect it's helvetica.

[Now was I terribly sad when I found out that I couldn't use helvetica for this blog... well YES! But I deal.]

I've had a lot of changes and stress happening in the last month, and my "perfect" world was turned upside down several times. But to balance myself out I'm ordering this little love:



Gotta love plastique* on etsy.

A girl can use a little perfection close to her heart... or at least as close to perfection as one can get in Santa Ana.

If you haven't seen the movie that fuels my obsession with this font, get on Netflix and watch it right now. Like seriously, right now.



This week has been crazy, but I have a job interview tomorrow that could be a step in the career direction. I love that my career choice is baking, because at the end of the day you really just made a bunch of cakes and cookies and other delicious treats. How amazing is that? So I'm keeping fingers and toes crossed about this one.

xx

candice