My birthday is less than a month away, and even though I don't expect presents from anyone, here's a little wishlist that I'm making up anyway. A girl can dream right? And I mostly dream in helvetica.
Even though I would prefer white lettering, it's still simple and fantastic. I am a girl that loves her tote bags [for proof of this, please see my closest].
I would sleep so much better at night with this hanging above my bed.
Just insane. I've been pining for this scarf for months. It's the most creative thing I've come across in a long time.
And of course I would just love a hardcopy of the movie so I don't have to watch it on my laptop all the time.
In all seriousness, I'm turning 25 this year and as much as I want to make a big deal about it, at the same time I just would love to have a fun evening with my friends at my bar. Nothing crazy, I would still like to function on some level the next morning. I just want to be surrounded by the important people in my life, that's all the matters to me at the end up the day. Oh and going to Hollingshead for lunch because I will get my birthday brownie dammit!
Well, ya win some and ya lose most of them. At least I don't feel bad and it was only a few dates. So glad I didn't get my hopes up.
Tomorrow I start my crazy schedule once again. Ugh I should have slept in more today to take advantage! Closing at work is taking some time to get used. I really enjoy being able to bake again, but it's a lot more physical labor. It's kicking my ass in a good way.
I'm very much looking forward to this weekend and David's beer filled bbq. I lucked up and actually got Sunday off from the bakery so I can sleep and recover before going back to work Monday morning.
And for no particular reason, I'm currently playing this song on repeat. And I would do just about anything to see these men live. Like now. Preferably a private show in my living room.
I don't know why this past week has been full of a lot of anxiety. And not the good kind. Not the productive, excited about something kind. More like the panic, not wanting to be in public anxiety. I know I'm stressed about money, going back to the school district [new school, new position, still haven't gotten a call to do my paperwork for it], working at the bakery [it's not going as well as it should], family, friends, dating, etc. I'm not really sure how to take a deep breath and just face everything, all I know is I'm gonna be up in about 5 1/2 hours going to work, and I'll make it there.
After work tomorrow I have to drive straight to my parents in San Diego for my brother's birthday. He's flying in from SF. I'm really excited to see him and my parents, but right now all I want to do is come home after work tomorrow and crawl into bed. This is definitely frustrating.
I don't know if I'm stressing also about the first date I've been on in who knows how long. This guy is rad though and I'm excited to get to know him. We had a french toast dinner on Monday night, and then hit up karaoke across the street. He sang a few songs which were fantastic, met my friends, we danced around like silly kids, and had a good time overall. I'm just over thinking and over analyzing everything now, which is so pointless. I need to just have fun, and whatever happens, happens. It's nothing serious and I'm making everything so serious in my head. I wish I could just let my emotions go on vacation for a while cause they really do get in the way sometimes.
The last 6 months have consisted of me getting more and more wrapped up in work, which is fine, but it's made it hard to think about dating anyone. And as much as I want to have someone in my life, I'm being so cautious about it because I'm so afraid of getting hurt again and becoming a major mess. I'm trying to be a grown-up about everything, but somehow my 16 y/o self keeps creeping out.
Maybe getting out of town for a day or so will be a good thing. Plus I'm going to Stone on Friday morning because they're releasing their Smoked Porter with Vanilla Beans for growler fills. I'll definitely have to write a review up on that.
[It's really amazing how writing all this down has already helped me relax. Thank you internetz. I know a lot of people think it's weird to have a public blog where you pour your heart out, but I've been writing in online journals for almost 10 years and they've always been so helpful to me.]
This last week I've been terribly obsessed with Mumford & Sons. They remind me of The Avett Brothers... but better. I know that some hipster might come try to punch me in the neck for saying that [and come on, your little vegan arms can't really do anything], but seriously, Mumford & Sons have stolen my heart.
I've been reminded of how amazing this song is thanks to karaoke this past Monday. And I realize now that I really need to own 500 Days of Summer.
And this is just because it happens to be one of my favorite Smiths songs.
Well seeing as I'm going to get only about 5 hours of sleep by time I finished writing this, I should probably go to bed. I think I've written myself into sleepmode finally.
Greg Koch [CEO of Stone Brewing Co], David, & myself!
Yesterday David & I met up at Stone for drinks & delicious food. While we were sitting in the Bistro I spotted Greg Koch aka the CEO of Stone walking through. So when we finally finished our dinner we decided to go try to meet him... and as you can see from above, we did! We just got to say "hi" and have him take a picture with us, but it was rad. Gosh I love Stone!
