quit.

Today consisted of peanut butter cookie/cup making... beerz drinking... and even some reading.

I took myself to the deli and had a beer on my own. It was nice because even though I know people there, I could still sit on my own and read and drink my beer without really being bothered. If I tried to do that downtown I'd get too caught up in seeing people and starting conversations.

The Stone 14th Anniversary I had on tap today was definitely 'OMNOMNOM' status. This is a beer I've really been enjoying since it's release a few weeks back, so finally having a big glass full of it from the tap made my day so much more delicious.

So my 1 full day off was a success, but tomorrow it's back to the grind. I'm looking forward to having Thursday AND Friday off next week. It's been awhile since I had 2 days off in a row.

Oh and I'm trying to quit smoking because it's an expensive habit and makes me feel kinda crappy overall. Wish me luck kids! I'm hoping I can kick the habit.

Well until next time, when something else interesting happens.

xx

bicycle.

Look what i bought!

And all I wanna do now is listen to this song.



Bike adventure this weekend with my Ellen. Maybe I will end up liking summer more than I thought.

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catch up.

The show went so great last night. Aaron's art work was amazing. There was a great turn out of people. I passed out a ton of cookies and cards. And everyone had a blast. I'm so lucky to have amazing people in my life that let me do awesome things like this.

It's going to be so strange going back to work tomorrow after 5 days off. But at the same time I'm excited to get back to normal life. These days off were definitely needed though. It was nice to go out and not have to worry about waking up at a certain time the next day. I relaxed, caught up with people, slept, didn't touch a cupcake [you really don't know how happy this made me], drank a bit too much, and had a blast. And on top of everything, this weekend itself was one of the best I've had in a while.


I caught up with an old friend today, and it made me so happy to have a drink, talk, and fuck around for a few hours. It really made me realize that how I react to things going on in other peoples lives can have a serious impact on our friendship. This is something I'm going to be working on.

I have so many good things going on that I really don't want to fuck anything up. I'm looking at expanding lush pastries more on the internetz. I'm going to be revamping my Santa Ana Saved My Life blog now that I have a clear idea on what I want to do with it [stayed tuned because it should be awesome]. I know that everything needs to be taken 1 day at a time, so I'm trying not to stress too much about it.

But as for now I need to get myself to sleep because 4:30am is going to be rough after not seeing it for many days.

xx

box.

The cookies are all done and packaged. I'm so happy with how they came out. It's like, you have an awesome idea and can imagine it all completed in your head, but you never know if it's really going to be that great. These came out just right.

Much thanks to Aaron Kraten and The Box Gallery for letting me do these. Most fun I've had baking in awhile.

xx

stencil.

Cutting out stencils for Aaron Kraten cookies made this evening not so bad. Also a short conversation with a good friend helped me to put things in more perspective [ie. not everyone that seems happy is always happy, but there's always a light at the end and there's always a friend there even when you think you're alone].

I'm so excited to make it through 1 more day of work, and then to enjoy 5 lovely days of cookies & sleeping in. Also birthdays and adventures will be thrown in there too. But mostly cookies and food coloring and an airbrush will be the bulk of my time.

My friend who runs an awesome restaurant called Rooster PM reminded me tonight that we were gonna make endangered species cookies/cupcakes for his place. Now I really want to make a manatee stencil for him. I'm gonna try to work on that this week as well as everything else.

So I'm gonna turn this week around from last night because I really don't have the time and energy to be a downer. Plus I have some really amazing things happening at the moment!

And I must must MUST remind myself: I can't control how other's treat me... I can only control how I react to the situation. And I'm taking back control.

xx

low.

I'm feeling so incredibly low lately. Down and out. Lonely like whoa. And I'm not sure what the problem is besides the serious lack of friends lately. I've lost 2 of my best friends in the last month, and everyone else has been caught up with their own lives.

I spend most days at home after work, watching tv, reading, and crashing in bed early. And yet I feel like crap most days because I'm stressed and sad. I just want someone to talk to. I want a constant in my life again.

Why do I lose friends so easily? I can only think it's me.

Crying would probably be ideal about now, but I can't even seem to do that. Hopefully I'll luck up and fall asleep soon.

This really isn't how I wanted life to be again.

xx

busy.

Who knew only having 1 job would still keep me really busy? So what have I been up to the last few weeks? My dear friend Shannon's wedding was definitely #1.



That's the whole set up at the venue. I'm just so happy that they liked everything.

Now that the wedding is done I can move onto my next big project... airbrushed cookies for the next Box Gallery opening. It's Aaron Kraten's show and I'm so excited because we went out to lunch the other day so he could sketch me the image for the cookies.

He was also awesome enough to draw me megaman!



I really need this tattooed on me ASAP.

Well life is going pretty swell at the moment. Good people surrounding me makes that a lot easier. Now if only I could find a second job already!

xx